etot, tot, totot, epot, mamaw in memory

epot, gamba maw kat sebelah tu, cumel giler kan? die tgh tidotu..nampak je payung terbukak kat lua tu, trus tido..pndai cari port, nak tido lam buai la gitu..hehe.. 

itulah epot kami..

pagi tadi, amat maseh lagi tido kat katil..tetibe dpt message from my sis:

"tot bru mati. kne langgar kreta 2 minutes ago. kpala hancur. yasir nak g skolah. nampak kna langgar dpn rumah"

on that very moment i started crying.."alah...tot dah mati~~~" hubby terkejut n hugged me..tried to soothe me down..i cried n cried for the cat, one of our family members. he is gone now..leaving all the sweet memories for us to cherish n keep them dearly in our heart. 

afterward, i ironed our clothes, in between my tears.. i called my sister, asked her, but we cannot talk..the pain, lost n agony are too much n refrained us from talking. we cried, expressing our sadness truough the phone, n then hung up. then i took my shower..i still need to go to work..hubby suggested us to go back to shah alam..i refused, excusing myself with the classes i have today. i recieved another message from katol:

"tgh duduk kat dining, dgr ada meow tgh mkn friskies kat dapur, trus g dapur nak check, rupa2nya meow lain. mcm dia tahu2 je tuan friskie tu dah mati.."

i was at the couch at that time, n started crying again..it hurts me so much, imagining myself going back to kampung n not seeing him anymore.

i dressed up. put on the powder on my face. i was getting ready to work, then (meme called me at first, but i missed it because i was in the shower) i recieved a message from her:

"tot dah slmt dikebumikan"

i have stopped crying. n called meme to know the whole story. she said that tis morn, tot ate more than usual..he was following the routine though. breakfast, wait for my brother to go to school, before his daily walk. the difference, for this morning, is, he has been knocked by a car to his death, n it was the last breakfast for him, and the last day on this earth. abah tak lalu nak breakfast..yasir quickly left for school..meme started crying..and me too, again..meme said: kite dah attached ngn die". we hung up.

later, i recieved two more sms from abah. 

"in loving memory...our family member has just passed away and buried in kampong subang area."

"it was tot the cat...cod. hit and run accident victim..."

and..that is the end of our beloved tot..

in time, tears would dry up..but nothing could ever replace him..

so long tot

such a long rest from blogging, such a hectic life..need to catch my breath

it has been almost 2 months I havent written anything here. More or less the same age as my married life. so, i guess, a lot of me to be updated. but, because of the time constraint, I dont think i can write a long post. marriage life plus working life do give me a little time for myself. 

FEW UPDATES OF MYSELF:

1. appointed as the russian programme coordinator.

2. submitted master's application to UPM

3. cooking, cleaning and adapting to married life.

4. wife for almost 2 months

5. have a husband to take care of

6. have to prepare final exam papers with the answer key

7. have a research to be completed

8. going to UniKL MSI in Kulim as a netball player! in the end of May

8. tonnes of other things including replacement classes, students presentation, etc..

i'll do my best to finish this semester smoothly!!